Okay so a close friend of mine told me she'd found the perfect boy for me, so I agreed to meet up with him at noon to have lunch together. Of course I was uncomfortable with a completely blind date, so we exchanged phone numbers and texted eachother throughout the day, so that we could get to know each other better.
Kind and good-intentioned as he might be, the guy is really, REALLY affectionate and I can't stand this anymore. I feel like a prostitute. I know my statement escalated rather quickly, but so did the date. By the end of the day he was pretty much already trying to kiss me, and I mean a hella real kiss. I can not blame him, though, as all I did was quietly accept his affection and pretended to not notice when I evaded his kisses.
Anyway, the whole point of this thing is: I don't want to be touched and I can't say no. I don't want to hold hands, I don't want to cuddle, I hardly even want to talk with a person I just met. I can't like somebody unless I love them first (and love meaning years of hardships and trust). I've never felt this uncomfortable in my life, and I honestly don't know how to turn him down. I wish this had never happened and I could just stay calm and single for as long as I like.